questions asked and answered

what is your dream? my dream when i was 12 years old was to play basketball professionally. i played basketball everyday - i was one of the best at my school. when i started to go through puberty at 13 i also started to listen music. one of the first tapes i ever bought was nirvana - in utero. it was hearing that album that made me decide i wanted to know everything about kurt cobain and nirvana. i bought every cd they had, every tshirt, poster and bootleg i could find - i was obsessed. nirvana is the reason i learned to play guitar. my dream from 13 til pretty much now has been to become a rock star. when i was in my teens i wanted to be in the biggest band in the world - now i just want to be in a band/play music where i can make a living off of it. the thing is i dont want to tour 365 days a year every year. i'd like to tour a good chunk of the year and put an album out every year so and have a small fan base. the dream of becoming a rock star is just as obserd sometimes as being a pro basketball player. we think our music great and awesome just like over other band does but we can't get people to come to our shows and we can't sell albums. i hate selling myself band to people - its feels sleazy. i don't mind telling people im in a band. so my dream is to become a medium sized rock star, put albums out, have any and all toys i want, have a couple of dogs, give money and support to non-kill animal shelters, and die at the age of 175 years old.

why did u move in the first place? Was it the job...or the band...what does your heart say?
i moved inititally b/c i was working a job that i was sick of and i knew if i didn't do something drastic that i would stay in that job and be miserable..haha sound familiar? the job i was working was for a autoparts dealer in their accounts payable dept. (haha guess what my job is now???) they kept giving more and more work and i kept asking for more money and they never came through. so one day they gave me more work and i just walked out and left a note saying that i had quit. i called erica on my drive home and said "i need to move, i just quit my job... i'm so sick of it..our band is doing anything here and i want to move somewhere far away. i mentioned conneticut, north carolina, florida...we then got dave our drummer into the mix and asked him...both of them shot down all of the states i mentioned...erica who has always wanted to move to california mentioned what else "california" i said ok how about san diego..and she said what about LA...i said well we know our friend laurie lives in san diego and she says its awesome...so we decided on san diego...my job ended up calling me back and i told them i'd come back for 2 months but then i'm moving away...so 2 months by and we the predicates head off on a 6 day journey across america to san diego, ca. so yes i followed my heart, now is my heart still in the same place? yes and no...yes b/c i'd still like to experience more of california its just hard for to make friends since i'm kinda of a hermet...since i don't go out much...
no b/c i'd like to be back east sometimes...i miss alotta things about massachusetts but not enough to move back at this time in my life...

Do you wanna try to grab and go forward into an unknown...or do you want to sink back into familiarity...? i want head into the unknown - i feel like i want alot of change right now im life. other than the scenery and lack of friends...i have the same job basically here as i did in massachusetts and erica is again working 2 jobs just to be able to pay her bills..its like playing the same song over and over but in a different club - it gets boring after a while even though you are playing in a different place. the unknown for me would be to quit my job and get a job that just pays the bills and nothing else..and try like hell and sell my band to everyone and their mother...

gregg

anything, anything

dear darling,

how was your day? my day was pretty ok. no real drama or scientific evidence of stress at work. i made the old ladies laugh as we imagined my young body intertwined with their frail frames.
i haven't felt the touch of your hands in such a long time. i wonder if the touch still has the electricity i felt the last time you did? i remember the times we would talk and you'd laugh at what i said...like every word was a joke that you never heard before. i can't believe the twists and turns life force feeds us but i actually like those. i'd be even more bored if life were a straight line without changes. i'd rather live one fucked moment to one amazing moment anyday.

starting next week when i have a tv i'm going to start this brand new untried idea..something that has never been done ever ever...and no one has ever though of this except me!
i'm going to start writing about tv shows i watch and all of us can talk shit about the show? amazing huh! great idea? sweeeeeeeeeeet.

some of the girls i work with at my job dress like they want every guy in the building to stop and look at their boobs and butts...don't girls know what us guys really want? duh i guess not!!!
we want a nice stelleto shoe, a pretty amethyst bracelet, or a killer coach handbag!

if you had to pick 5 cd's to bring with you on a desserted island which would they be?
mine would be

bt - movement in still life: the best trance cd i've ever heard - a really good setting cd..wink wink.
nada surf - let go: such a beautiful collection of music - i love it for happy and sad moments.
postal service - give up: a great cd to think or dance too
weezer - pinkerton: a great mix of heavy/soft/punk
third eye blind - third eye blind: to give me a nice pop/rock fix

websites to checkout when you're bored
drunkenstepfather.blogspot.com/
www.popdoh.com

nighty nite,
gregg

No rings on these fingers

good evening Jesus,

i'm having too much fun sharing my photos.
i posted a album of photos of girls i've dated in my past. haha pretty funny shit. if i dated you please send me your photo and you too can be an ex-gf on my website.

does anyone feel flawless with there innerself? i sure don't i've heard too many times of my faults but are they true God? I sure hope God is real cause if he isn't then life is kinda fuckin weird...i need somewhere to go after i die and i ain't talking about hell. I want to be somewhere with all the animals i've had in life, family & friends and just shoot the shit..who's with me on this one?

this blog is getting a bit uhh unorganized...i can't keep a straight thought...i'm 0n fire.

facts about today

*erica and i got in a fight this morning and afternoon over basically nothing
*i had lunch with lissa
*i talked to my mom for 1 minute
*i went for a walk with the dogs and erica after work
*i watched elephant - it was alright - a bit depressing but what else can you expect from an indie film
*i'm more fucked than previously thought

unless i write tomorrow - please remember to remind me to write in my blog again.

almost over & out,
gregg

geezers need excitement

good day mate.

back from my deep blue ocean of depression haha j/k i wasn't depressed so lets not all start writing me emails asking if i was on a 24 hour suicide watch cause that comes much later in this story..haha again just kidding with the suicide shit i'm too scared to die anyway.

ok i updated my links section if you look over to the right. i added a photos page and a link to the yahoo music unlimited. i've been messing around with the yahoo music unlimited and i totally dig it. it not only provides you with your own customized radio station the plays only bands that you like in cd quality but you can also download any song you want - i definitely recommend it.

the photos page i added is pretty cool - you can post comments on the photos and download the photos and blah blah blah - check it out fucker - My Photos

does anyone know of a job i could do where i just surf the internet and flirt with young boys? i mean girls 18-75?
my job bores me...i'm in a playful mood for a guy that can't catch his breath.

longing for july 1...

love, gregg

sleepy california

good morning darling,

i'm writing to tell you that after watching "big fish" i'm even more confused on where and what i want to be in the future. i'm not sure if i want to stay in california or move back home to massachusetts. i love the weather, the beaches, the sunsets, the mexican food & the pretty girl.
i miss the familiarality of home, my family, my friends, driving through the suburbs, the atmosphere, the spring, the autumn, the summer, and even a little bit of winter...the reason "big fish" made me think about all of this isn't something totally out of the blue. moving back crosses my mind quite often...i don't feel like this is the place i am to live and die for the rest of my life...maybe i'll change my mind in the future but as of right now i don't feel that way. i barely even go out at all here - it's not like i was a party animal in massachusetts but at least i knew where to go for fun - here i am like a tiger in captivity (see you thought i was going to say "like a fish out of water"

darling, please write and lead me in the right direction.

love,
gregory shane o'connell

nothing's colder than ice

dear rich boys and poor girls,

lets have fun with this one - lets post random thoughts & song lyrics and try to figure out which is which - fun huh!

i'm so hot for the rich girl.
jesus don't touch my baby.
the world would be better if we all just chewed some gum.
in the heat of the moment we're all sweaty pigs.

ok i'm done with that.

my new old favorite flavor of gum is dentyne ice vanilla chill.
my stomach hurts right now..my stomach always hurts, sometimes.

if you have an mp3 player that plays windows media mp3's or if you just like to listen to music on your computer definitely download and subscribe to yahoo's new music service. it's only $4.99/month if you signup for a year or $6.99/month if you pay monthly. you can download all the music for just that low monthly amount - only catch is once you stop paying the music is dead. checkout it anyway its free for 7 days - yahoo music unlimited

if i made a mix cd for this weekend this is which songs would be on it.

stars - elevator love song
the raveonettes - red tan
the raveonettes - love in a trashcan
good charlotte - we believe (i just lost all indie cred huh dave)
the dears - lost in the plot
system of a down - b.y.o.b.
bloc party - banquet (dance remix)
flaming lips - seven nation army (cover)
brazilian girls - don't stop
ryan adams - friends
the postal service - be still my heart (remix)
patrick wolf - tristan

working for joy,
gregg

and you thought i didn't go to the beach without my cellphone!

gregg rawking as a cartoon

my new identity

hi soldiers of misfortune,

i'm going to breakdown myself into a list of whats new.

*my tv exploded. it lived for 7 years and then burned its insides somehow so i am now without a tv. if you'd like to help me get a new tv send some paypal to lazygregg@yahoo.com

*erica is back from vermont.

*zdenek and cathy still don't speak to shane and kelly..

*my friend started a blog and deleted it all in a matter of 3 days.

*g moved into the new place and the move went smoothe

*i love jamba juice - too bad they arent on the east coast

*dave is well and alive in the smallest state in the union rhode island.

*my favorite songs of the week are: brazilian girls - don't stop & tammy wynette - stand by your man

*i ate spaghetti tonight with butter and grated cheese (i made it)

*itunes 4.8 was released today

*i saw "a lot like love" this past weekend it was good but not as good as "fever pitch"

*i watched "united states of leland" and "about schmidt" on dvd both were really good flix and will make you question life and what its all about.

*ryan adams released "cold roses" its ok so far - i dig it.

im off.

hopelessly hoping.
you're only a musician if people listen to your music otherwise your just an apsiring musician.

gregg

me.as.a.sexy.bitch

passing...

the best girlfriend i've ever had in my life and my best friend in the whole world has lost her father. we finished our show this past friday when we got home and erica was checking her voicemails. she received a voicemail from her mom out of the blue @ 2am, announcing her dad was in the intensive care unit. she then received another phone call from a family friend saying her dad was in a coma on life support. saturday evening at dinner she received another phone call that her dad had died of a bacteria infection. it was just a short few weeks ago she was talking with her dad who was in perfect health and in the matter of 2 days he is gone. i feel so bad for her. she is the nicest, sweetest person i've ever met in my life. the things i remember most about her dad was he loved to eat and talk about food for days on end. he told terrific stories - he used to come down to vermont with erica's mom to our apartment in blackstone, ma and we'd go out for lunch and he'd tell these stories that would keep your attention and make you feel like it was movie. he was super smart, religious, knew alot about town water since that was his job, loved to count things including how many ants he killed in the house, he was unique, he was stubborn, he loved his cat, he loved to be outdoors...he lived life without all the gagdets, expensive clothes and cars that people think make them happy. he lived a simple life and was happy with it.
one of the sweetest things i always remember about him is him sending erica letters in the mail telling her whats going on his life, the families that are in close contact with them, and how much he missed her...he'd also always put a scratch ticket in their hoping erica would win a small fortune. he lived life under his own terms and showed his love for others in ways that sometimes you had to think about but was just as meaningful and heartfelt as conventional ways.

r.i.p
deacon peter putis


gregg

moments

life is just moments of time and you can't be greedy and ask for everything at once. you just take what you have/had and live off that moment.

gso

boston.to.san.diego.

let me start off with wishing rob stone of framingham, ma a quick recovery. he recently had a colonoschapy (sp?) they gave him some medicine that made me pooh pee...gross huh!?!?
well wishes my friend!

my bestest friend zdenek janda from massachusetts is coming out to california this saturday. when i see that little man run off the airplane and into my arms i am going to give him the biggest kiss known to man. i haven't seen this little guy since november 2004! kisses, hugs, lust, pizza, gatorade and anal stimulation will be happening like no ones news!
erica and i are going up to los angeles saturday night and meeting up with z's sister viviane and then off to the airport to pick up z and his wonderful wife cathy. then its off to some cheap motel and megs bday party. california kings for one night anyway!

new things in my life:
i made steves website www.sjlproductions.net
herbie's foot needed to be operated on. cost: $188 - herbie feeling no more pain: priceless.
this is my last week as a temp at my current job.
i paid $2.54/gallon for regular gas yesterday

thats all i'm kinda boring lately...
catch me next time when i write about what happened with the saga that is Z & Me.

lovingly yours,
japedo

i'm.feeling.supersonic.

wut up dawg?
it's the g to the r to the e double g
boy!

enough with the nonsense lets get to the topic at hand should gay people be able to marry legally under united states law?
i say yes - why you ask? well because they deserve the same rights and liberties as any other american. screw the religion angle thats such bullshit. religion already contradicts itself so you cant even use that as an agle. wars start over religion - enough said! lets legalize marriage so i can get married! haha j/k about me getting married...

gregg

i.need you.like.a.weak.heart.

it's getting fuckin' hot in san diego wooooo...zdenek & cathy come here soon. i'm pretty excited about seeing them, it'll be fun. they are coming the day of our show - holla!

so far my 2 new favorite albums of the week are
m83 - before the dawn heals us
bloc party - silent alarm

buy these two albums or download them off soulseek b/c they very excellent, and who the hell doesnt love an excellent album or two!

i haven't written good music in the last couple weeks. i feel kinda out of juice in that department lately...can i have some of your juicy juice please?

i watched rodger dodger last weekend (recommended by dave tuetken) what a good movie...very funny, interesting and super cool...rent it buy it rip it do something with it!

g is moving in with her sista
the pope is dieing
i downloaded 53 songs yesterday
i met www.marizen.com we played a show with them in rhode island - and we saw them play out here - really cool to see them again
i had $1,000 in my bank account for 1 day.
i keep losing in the lottery
i look better with short hair
i tried rubios
i tried ice breaker sours

im off...

ps
have seen the new pirate movie? it's rated arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggghhhhhhhh

gregg