if it makes you less sad i'll move out of the state.
mentally its almost time for a breakdown. i'm beginning to let my mind get the best of me. i started taking vitamins last week. i bought strawberries, raspberries, bananas & green beans at the "market" (shoutout to lissa) yesterday evening.
i'm trying to sell my song "taco bell" that i wrote with my friend zdenek janda
to taco bell. i sent them an email saying i wrote a song that i'd like to present to them. they called me yesterday at around 5pm and gave me the marketing departments phone #. i called the marketing department and they said to mail the cd to the address they gave me. i am going to mail it this week. at worst i will have a written response from them saying yes or no 6-8 weeks later.
my friend michelle from the job i got fired from just got fired too except she basically got fired for no reason it seems. the world works in mysterious ways. you gotta love "at will employment"
the company wins and the employee always loses.
i'm ready for a change in life. maybe i'll drop the whole technology fetish i have of having the need for all the latest gizmos & gadgets. i may be ready to live a simple life of music and solitary confinement to my bedroom. i'll break the mold that i've been building for 25 years and start new. i'm trying to become as pure as possible. no drugs, no alcohol, no caffeine, no smoking...i just need to ween myself off the last bit of fast food that infiltrates my system every so often...i exercise, i take vitamins, i eat fruit now (since yesterday =) )
drop my chemical dependency of needing a woman around me at all times to take care of me.
i need excellent performance and reliability from myself.
somethings missing.
and i miss it.
gregg
Saturday, June 11, 2005
Friday, June 10, 2005
top 20 photos
holding strong is lissa's photo but climbing the charts is boobville...don't forget to checkout the new zoo photos under "my photos"
 | #1: lissa - my special friend from sd she's panamasian |
 | #2: Isa my ex gf i dated her from 1996-1998 |
 | #3: friends in sd couple boston peeps in zdenek |
 | #4: beast man a half nude zdenek |
 | #5: Meg my ex gf I dated her for 2 months in 2004 |
 | #6: Erin my ex gf i dated her for like 2 months in 2001 |
 | #7: Erica ex gf i dated here from 2002-2004 |
 | #8: boobville my friend jill from jr high is on the left with her friends |
 | #9: Jessie my ex gf i dated here from 1998-2001 |
 | #10: my sis and her hubbie xmas time kisses |
 | #11: erica's pretty hair erica my ex-gf/best friend/roomate/bandmate |
 | #12: hippie love hazelgoods hippie love music |
 | #13: my dream girl hot so f'n hot |
 | #14: herbie @ 8 weeks the first day i had herbie |
 | #15: my adopted daughter my adopted daughter from europe |
 | #16: michelle from sd by way of chi-town hip hopper |
 | #17: my bro and evan my brother and my sisters son evan |
 | #18: z blowing mister man at work |
 | #19: brothers charles in charge's brother and son |
 | #20: me and dave @ petco park dave and i's first time at petco park in SD |
Thursday, June 09, 2005
hi son, it's dad...
download it
hi son its dad
i cant make it to you
i've got things on my plate
and a shower for two
why dont we meet up the next time it's we
and we'll make the ballgame i hear that its free
for kids under 12 and dads just like me
im sick of myself
and i'm lieing alone
in the bed i just made
ill just wait by the phone
for you to call
for you to call
hi son its dad
and its quarter to 3
we can't make it to baseball
i am suddenly not free
why dont we meet up the next time it's we
and we'll pretend we had the best time in weeks
and we'll forget all about what happened today
and meet up the next time when i'm not away
hi son its dad
i cant make it to you
i've got things on my plate
and a shower for two
why dont we meet up the next time it's we
and we'll make the ballgame i hear that its free
for kids under 12 and dads just like me
im sick of myself
and i'm lieing alone
in the bed i just made
ill just wait by the phone
for you to call
for you to call
hi son its dad
and its quarter to 3
we can't make it to baseball
i am suddenly not free
why dont we meet up the next time it's we
and we'll pretend we had the best time in weeks
and we'll forget all about what happened today
and meet up the next time when i'm not away
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
how freakin punk rawk is that!?!?!
dear friends,
i told you something "big" would happen...and i didn't let you down..not one bit!
i was officially fired today...here is the story....
as you know i wrote in my blog last night about what happened at work. this morning is going fine not stressful pretty chill and so on...at about 9:15 am i go over to one of our other buildings and i get some info on some invoices i needed help with. i come back to my department @ 9:30 am and my boss comes over to me...."gregg i changed my mind from yesterday" ... haha i am thinking to myself oh she is going to change her mind and get rid of the written warning...haha nope!
"gregg i'm going to have to let you go...you obviously don't like working for me and or in this department"
i'm like ok..."here's your last paycheck"
ok...
"please grab your things and leave"
ok...
so i got fired for freedom of speech. this girl in hr nicknamed "ben gibbard girl" by me who comes and reads my blog goes and tattle tails on me to my boss...
she's probably like "gregg wrote in his blog about work and its bad!!!"
i'm not mad at "ben gibbard girl" i expect her to be a tattle tail and low life. she sells everyone out she comes in contact with..she's a kiss ass and good at it..
my boss obviously was hurt b/c what i said was the truth in my blog about her...she treats the department like 4th graders, she's the most extreme moody person i've met...she could really use a lesson in "managing" in meetings for instance she would point out things people do wrong in the dept in front of everyone else...ya thats cool hah! you do that in private not public.
i made a few good friends at the job and i will for sure stay in touch with them.
fighting the good fight,
greggoconnell
i told you something "big" would happen...and i didn't let you down..not one bit!
i was officially fired today...here is the story....
as you know i wrote in my blog last night about what happened at work. this morning is going fine not stressful pretty chill and so on...at about 9:15 am i go over to one of our other buildings and i get some info on some invoices i needed help with. i come back to my department @ 9:30 am and my boss comes over to me...."gregg i changed my mind from yesterday" ... haha i am thinking to myself oh she is going to change her mind and get rid of the written warning...haha nope!
"gregg i'm going to have to let you go...you obviously don't like working for me and or in this department"
i'm like ok..."here's your last paycheck"
ok...
"please grab your things and leave"
ok...
so i got fired for freedom of speech. this girl in hr nicknamed "ben gibbard girl" by me who comes and reads my blog goes and tattle tails on me to my boss...
she's probably like "gregg wrote in his blog about work and its bad!!!"
i'm not mad at "ben gibbard girl" i expect her to be a tattle tail and low life. she sells everyone out she comes in contact with..she's a kiss ass and good at it..
my boss obviously was hurt b/c what i said was the truth in my blog about her...she treats the department like 4th graders, she's the most extreme moody person i've met...she could really use a lesson in "managing" in meetings for instance she would point out things people do wrong in the dept in front of everyone else...ya thats cool hah! you do that in private not public.
i made a few good friends at the job and i will for sure stay in touch with them.
fighting the good fight,
greggoconnell
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
corporate america
hello friends,
well today was like any other day at work, boring and unexciting. i got in at 8:00 am - went to lunch at noon and watched "all the real girls" with lissa. at about 3:30 pm i get an email from my boss..and this is how she writes every email haha just like this "MEET ME IN THE UPSTAIRS CONFERENCE ROOM ASAP" every email is always in caps as if she is yelling...i love it. i know what is coming with this email and our one on one meeting upstairs. i had this feeling before hand that she was going to email me or call me into a meeting. so we are in the meeting and she says:
you seem to have regressed in your progress for this job..you were doing well now you just keep making the same mistake and asking too many questions...she asks if something has been going on in my head or life..i'm like no...she gives me a written warning...my first written warning..classic i love it! another avenue of life i have been able to live through..you know its not all that bad...haha =)
i guess the real problem is i dont care enough or want to try hard enough for a job i dont give two shits about. plus it doesnt help that she is a bit over the top with her moods..its like one minute she is joking and having fun with the class and then the next minute she is yelling at us for talking or laughing or something else that is ridiculous. i feel like i am in elementary school sometimes with her...
my dilemma now is should i tough it out and try my absolute hardest? should i ask to be moved to another department? should i quit and find a new job? should i move back to massachusetts?
i don't want to move back to massachusetts just yet..if i did i'd feel like i gave up to quick and i know i'd feel depressed...
i like working for the company but i just dont care for my department/manager..so going to another department would be cool but i dunno if my manager would let me or if she would give nothing but bad press to the other managers about me...
i'd hate to quit and find a new job - its such a pain in the ass....its stressful and i'd probably have to go back to temping for a bit which means i'd be making shit for money again...
i could suck it up and try my hardest and stay where i am...this i dont even want to do...i had a bad taste in my mouth before about the job i have but the written warning is just the icing on the cake for me..i'm more unhappy than ever....
something big should happen in the new few days to week so stay tuned...
maybe i'll win the lottery? maybe i'll get fired? maybe i'll get a record deal? maybe i'll be working at wendy's? maybe i'll find out i am a dad?
i dunno what's going to happen exactly but i can feel it in my bones...
you my fans will be the first know..so no worries.
watched and well,
greggoconnell
well today was like any other day at work, boring and unexciting. i got in at 8:00 am - went to lunch at noon and watched "all the real girls" with lissa. at about 3:30 pm i get an email from my boss..and this is how she writes every email haha just like this "MEET ME IN THE UPSTAIRS CONFERENCE ROOM ASAP" every email is always in caps as if she is yelling...i love it. i know what is coming with this email and our one on one meeting upstairs. i had this feeling before hand that she was going to email me or call me into a meeting. so we are in the meeting and she says:
you seem to have regressed in your progress for this job..you were doing well now you just keep making the same mistake and asking too many questions...she asks if something has been going on in my head or life..i'm like no...she gives me a written warning...my first written warning..classic i love it! another avenue of life i have been able to live through..you know its not all that bad...haha =)
i guess the real problem is i dont care enough or want to try hard enough for a job i dont give two shits about. plus it doesnt help that she is a bit over the top with her moods..its like one minute she is joking and having fun with the class and then the next minute she is yelling at us for talking or laughing or something else that is ridiculous. i feel like i am in elementary school sometimes with her...
my dilemma now is should i tough it out and try my absolute hardest? should i ask to be moved to another department? should i quit and find a new job? should i move back to massachusetts?
i don't want to move back to massachusetts just yet..if i did i'd feel like i gave up to quick and i know i'd feel depressed...
i like working for the company but i just dont care for my department/manager..so going to another department would be cool but i dunno if my manager would let me or if she would give nothing but bad press to the other managers about me...
i'd hate to quit and find a new job - its such a pain in the ass....its stressful and i'd probably have to go back to temping for a bit which means i'd be making shit for money again...
i could suck it up and try my hardest and stay where i am...this i dont even want to do...i had a bad taste in my mouth before about the job i have but the written warning is just the icing on the cake for me..i'm more unhappy than ever....
something big should happen in the new few days to week so stay tuned...
maybe i'll win the lottery? maybe i'll get fired? maybe i'll get a record deal? maybe i'll be working at wendy's? maybe i'll find out i am a dad?
i dunno what's going to happen exactly but i can feel it in my bones...
you my fans will be the first know..so no worries.
watched and well,
greggoconnell
Monday, June 06, 2005
Saturday, June 04, 2005
i.love.
my newest creation in music. download it.
i.love.
rescue me
rescue me
im missing massachusetts
and im missing my mom
im not afraid
im on my own
im just sad
cause my loves not grown
california sun is nice
and flowers bloomed all year are fine
but it dont compare to leaves that change
or snow that falls on new years day
and colds that start b/c of rain
i love this place i cant complain
whether i am right
please just stay and talk the night
even though i dont love this place
thinking of you will still remain
i know you're in a better state
i miss you more than i can say
we can wait for this to end
to burn out like the love we send
and move on without you in life
the less complete the more i fight
ive got some things id like to hide
ill give you more when you arrive
i.love.
rescue me
rescue me
im missing massachusetts
and im missing my mom
im not afraid
im on my own
im just sad
cause my loves not grown
california sun is nice
and flowers bloomed all year are fine
but it dont compare to leaves that change
or snow that falls on new years day
and colds that start b/c of rain
i love this place i cant complain
whether i am right
please just stay and talk the night
even though i dont love this place
thinking of you will still remain
i know you're in a better state
i miss you more than i can say
we can wait for this to end
to burn out like the love we send
and move on without you in life
the less complete the more i fight
ive got some things id like to hide
ill give you more when you arrive
Pancho Villa
dude its late right now!
1:17am i'm never up this late. the night in a breakdown of war and words. i got off work at 5pm and i proceeded to follow michelle for our schedule 1 month in advance dinner @ seau's. we arrived at seau's at about 5:45pm...i was impressed with the overall atmosphere of seau's...alot of tv's, music was ok, waitstaff was good looking, clean bathrooms, food was ok...michelle and i had a great time. i really have alot in common with her in regards to entertainment (i.e. movies and music) we also feel the same way about people. it probably doesnt hurt that she is the same sign as me..or at least i think she is..haha
we got mozzarella sticks and sprites for appetizers. my entree was the southwestern meatloaf with mashed potatoes and she got the lobster stuffed ravoli. she told me a funny story..i was like would the name "entree" for a kid be funny and she tells me this story of a dude that named his kids after drinks "hennessey" "cavauseay" (sp?) and i can't remember the other one..it was probably "bud"
after dinner i headed home and played on the computer and watched "prom night" on mtv. at about 9:00pm i headed to the gym. i did 15 mins on the treadmill and 15 mins on the bike..burned 180 calories - holla atcha boy! after the gym i called my friend i work with jenny to see what she was doing. she said they were at a country bar called "in cahoots" i was like ok well let me take a shower and i'll call you. i get home take a shower, bring the dogs to go pee and head out. i get to the bar at like 10:40 i believe...i get to the door and the bouncer is like you can't come in b/c you have flipflops on..haha and even if you had regular shoes you have to tuck in your tshirt..i was like this is so gay..and i'm pretty gay...anyways i call jenny and tell her i can't come in so she comes out with her friends and i ended up talking to them for 20 mins or so and i leave....on my drive home i call everyone i know that i can call in san diego that wouldnt get mad...i call lissa, crystal & becky...becky picks up and is like what are you doing and i'm like nothing im just chillin going home from in cahoots...we made fun of in cahoots for like 4 seconds and then i was like you wanna hang for a bit so she said sure come over and chill...before i got to far with this i met becky on myspace. she is originally from kansas..we hung out one time in february and none since then...i got to her house in ob and we sat on the porch and just talked about everything from music to love to life...i left at like 1:00am and now here i am...writing in my blog....erica is still out with her friend from work.i hope she doesnt get too drunk..she usually never does...
i'm not going to bed yet..it's 1:34am..i'm going to watch some tele and talk to herbie.
have a good night darling.
love
gregory
1:17am i'm never up this late. the night in a breakdown of war and words. i got off work at 5pm and i proceeded to follow michelle for our schedule 1 month in advance dinner @ seau's. we arrived at seau's at about 5:45pm...i was impressed with the overall atmosphere of seau's...alot of tv's, music was ok, waitstaff was good looking, clean bathrooms, food was ok...michelle and i had a great time. i really have alot in common with her in regards to entertainment (i.e. movies and music) we also feel the same way about people. it probably doesnt hurt that she is the same sign as me..or at least i think she is..haha
we got mozzarella sticks and sprites for appetizers. my entree was the southwestern meatloaf with mashed potatoes and she got the lobster stuffed ravoli. she told me a funny story..i was like would the name "entree" for a kid be funny and she tells me this story of a dude that named his kids after drinks "hennessey" "cavauseay" (sp?) and i can't remember the other one..it was probably "bud"
after dinner i headed home and played on the computer and watched "prom night" on mtv. at about 9:00pm i headed to the gym. i did 15 mins on the treadmill and 15 mins on the bike..burned 180 calories - holla atcha boy! after the gym i called my friend i work with jenny to see what she was doing. she said they were at a country bar called "in cahoots" i was like ok well let me take a shower and i'll call you. i get home take a shower, bring the dogs to go pee and head out. i get to the bar at like 10:40 i believe...i get to the door and the bouncer is like you can't come in b/c you have flipflops on..haha and even if you had regular shoes you have to tuck in your tshirt..i was like this is so gay..and i'm pretty gay...anyways i call jenny and tell her i can't come in so she comes out with her friends and i ended up talking to them for 20 mins or so and i leave....on my drive home i call everyone i know that i can call in san diego that wouldnt get mad...i call lissa, crystal & becky...becky picks up and is like what are you doing and i'm like nothing im just chillin going home from in cahoots...we made fun of in cahoots for like 4 seconds and then i was like you wanna hang for a bit so she said sure come over and chill...before i got to far with this i met becky on myspace. she is originally from kansas..we hung out one time in february and none since then...i got to her house in ob and we sat on the porch and just talked about everything from music to love to life...i left at like 1:00am and now here i am...writing in my blog....erica is still out with her friend from work.i hope she doesnt get too drunk..she usually never does...
i'm not going to bed yet..it's 1:34am..i'm going to watch some tele and talk to herbie.
have a good night darling.
love
gregory
Friday, June 03, 2005
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
get your hands off of my woman
dear my babies mamas mama,
i worked like a soldier in the cotton fields today. the work was nice and i burned like a really white irish man only could. today at the gym i did 15 mins/1 mile on the treadmill - 13 mins on the bike - weights....i weighed myself and i came in at 175 lbs...i'm looking to get down to 135 lbs so that i look really healthy.
facts and figures
*my mom calls me way too much on her new cellphone
*my sisters son evan turned 2
*beauty & the geek - is my new reality show i watch on the wb
*i'm watching "closer" @ lunchtime so far so sexly good - my friend says "good witty banter"
*steve is coming to san diego from june 21-july 6
*i went to the san diego zoo with my make pretend girlfriend (photos will be up this week or next)
*more people keep saying i look better with short hair - rather than my rawk star long hair i had
check ya later man,
gregg
i worked like a soldier in the cotton fields today. the work was nice and i burned like a really white irish man only could. today at the gym i did 15 mins/1 mile on the treadmill - 13 mins on the bike - weights....i weighed myself and i came in at 175 lbs...i'm looking to get down to 135 lbs so that i look really healthy.
facts and figures
*my mom calls me way too much on her new cellphone
*my sisters son evan turned 2
*beauty & the geek - is my new reality show i watch on the wb
*i'm watching "closer" @ lunchtime so far so sexly good - my friend says "good witty banter"
*steve is coming to san diego from june 21-july 6
*i went to the san diego zoo with my make pretend girlfriend (photos will be up this week or next)
*more people keep saying i look better with short hair - rather than my rawk star long hair i had
check ya later man,
gregg
Saturday, May 28, 2005
top 20 most viewed photos
| | #1: lissa - my special friend from sd she's panamasian |
| | #2: beast man a half nude zdenek |
| | #3: friends in sd couple boston peeps in zdenek |
| | #4: Isa my ex gf i dated her from 1996-1998 |
| | #5: Meg my ex gf I dated her for 2 months in 2004 |
| | #6: Erica ex gf i dated here from 2002-2004 |
| | #7: boobville my friend jill from jr high is on the left with her friends |
| | #8: Erin my ex gf i dated her for like 2 months in 2001 |
| | #9: my sis and her hubbie xmas time kisses |
| | #10: Jessie my ex gf i dated here from 1998-2001 |
| | #11: herbie @ 8 weeks the first day i had herbie |
| | #12: erica's pretty hair erica my ex-gf/best friend/roomate/bandmate |
| | #13: my adopted daughter my adopted daughter from europe |
| | #14: my dream girl hot so f'n hot |
| | #15: michelle from sd by way of chi-town hip hopper |
| | #16: my bro and evan my brother and my sisters son evan |
| | #17: hippie love hazelgoods hippie love music |
| | #18: z blowing mister man at work |
| | #19: brothers charles in charge's brother and son |
| | #20: me and dave @ petco park dave and i's first time at petco park in SD |
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
oh just smile
haha here is some dope shit!
me and z - Wahooleena Carolina
me talking to z on the phone and he doesnt know i'm recording it - phone call
me and z - Wahooleena Carolina
me talking to z on the phone and he doesnt know i'm recording it - phone call
hiding ourselves
here is a song that will never go farther than the computer in my bedroom. i'll never record it in a studio cause its pretty much rubbish but its a good short explanation of how my relationship with erica was when living in massachusetts about the end of our relationship. the lyrics are below. download the song here
you shutdown
a part of me
that no one else will ever see
with eyes closed
i'd like to know
whats going on between you & me
we share a house
but not rooms
we hide ourselves from what we still do
when we're alone
we reminisce
about the time herbie almost got hit
and its upstairs i really know where you're going
you shutdown
a part of me
that no one else will ever see
with eyes closed
i'd like to know
whats going on between you & me
we share a house
but not rooms
we hide ourselves from what we still do
when we're alone
we reminisce
about the time herbie almost got hit
and its upstairs i really know where you're going
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
Writing to reach you
dear baby girl,
i just signed up for a gym membership at 24. i figure its about time i start and continue a workout routine that will establish me with a hot body instead of a body only a mother could love. the throwing up only gets you so far...=P
work this week has been ok so far. i am really glad its a 3 day weekend this week...i'm probably going to do laundry which i was supposed to do yesterday but got too busy and it seems i will remain busy the rest of the week. i am getting tickets to street scene this thursday. street scene is gonna be so phat. checkout the lineup
if i ever get murdered check my blog for clues - crazy story
and here is what he wrote in the blog entry - read here
facts for the week:
*my mom is getting a verizon cell phone tomorrow
*my dog needs to be groomed (if you know of a good one in SD let a brotha know)
*the warehouse at my work is singing "taco bell" religiously
*my heart rate on the bike was 122 - my friend said it should be 160 (i'd be in good shape for a dead guy)
til the next time,
gregg
i just signed up for a gym membership at 24. i figure its about time i start and continue a workout routine that will establish me with a hot body instead of a body only a mother could love. the throwing up only gets you so far...=P
work this week has been ok so far. i am really glad its a 3 day weekend this week...i'm probably going to do laundry which i was supposed to do yesterday but got too busy and it seems i will remain busy the rest of the week. i am getting tickets to street scene this thursday. street scene is gonna be so phat. checkout the lineup
if i ever get murdered check my blog for clues - crazy story
and here is what he wrote in the blog entry - read here
facts for the week:
*my mom is getting a verizon cell phone tomorrow
*my dog needs to be groomed (if you know of a good one in SD let a brotha know)
*the warehouse at my work is singing "taco bell" religiously
*my heart rate on the bike was 122 - my friend said it should be 160 (i'd be in good shape for a dead guy)
til the next time,
gregg
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